Need to somehow bring myself out of it again. I can feel this whole thing bringing me down like a downward spiral.

I'm just so tired, I think the stress is really getting to me and all this fighting is really wearing me down internally. It's like constantly going against the current. The whole process is too long and I need to break away. But it's not over yet. Right after Monday, I am demotivated once more. For 2 days, no matter how much I sleep I would still feel tired.

I need to know whats wrong...why am I feeling like this? =( why can't I just get on and over with it...

I hope I can pull through just fine with whatever the hell is going on...

all the best.