In my own terms
I am who I am. That does not mean I won't change. Change is a part of the process of how we go through everything. I am learning to embrace that process.
I am more reserved. I don't think there is anything wrong with that. Maybe in the past I was more pushed forward. Maybe I'm a lot more mellowed down now. But there is nothing wrong with that. Maybe I see things differently now. That does not mean I don't have dreams, goals or wants.
Being reserved, being normal does not mean I do not care. Does not mean I do not want.
Right now, I just want to be neutral.
There is a constant debate within me;
It's important to be like this because that is what everyone is doing. That is how you would succeed or get through it. I used to think, if I don't follow then I'm out of the game. But the thing is, who sets the game?
Okay, I admit, I'm not all great or good. I am still influenced and it's important to have your own set of thinking and standing on your own ground. I am not there yet.
As I said, I am more reserved. God knows why I am like this. I wondered if I was ever like this before?
Yeah, well..insecurity just struck me today. I feel like going to that emo corner of mine and sulk..worry endlessly. I'm almost entering that zone again. But not this time, that zone is off limits. I am smarter than that.