disappointed with myself.

learn to love yourself before anything. 

So I am not disappointed with myself. Look at things under a different light. Now I want to say.."so what!" Screw it. 

Do it not because everyone is doing it. Do it because you are interested in it, because you like it. All of the reaction made me scared, worried and panic. I don't want to feel that. I want to feel, that I know what I'm doing, feel confident and unafraid. I want to feel excited about it. 

smile. be happy. enjoy.

it's just too tiring to think and ponder about it. I'm feeling exhausted all of a sudden. 

I haven't let go. I haven't let loose. I want to cry, I don't know how. I'm not doing justice to myself or my mind. It's not good at all.